We had our first meeting with the History teacher today....he kind of reminds me of another history teacher in AdMU, Mr. Alejandrino (I know him because he was my Soc. Sci. teacher during 3rd year HS).

Sometime in the middle of class, he said something like: "the world doesn't work for the shy." It stuck me since I have experienced this a lot of times. It's really pathetic. The shy ones don't get their ideas up front. The shy ones watch in the background. The shy ones don't get noticed.

What is being shy in the first place?

1 : easily frightened
2: disposed to avoid a person or thing
3: hesitant in committing oneself
4: sensitively diffident or retiring
5: secluded, hidden
6: having less than the full or specified amount or number
7: disreputable

Source: http://www.m-w.com

Two, three, four, five...that's me! I may not be as shy right now but it still disturbs me. There were a lot of things that I could have shared, done and said before and that's why I try to make up for these things now.

Why am I shy in the first place? I guess it's because I fear embarrassment and judgement (I think there's a better word for this...). I don't want others to think of me wrongly. But then, so what? If they don't like who I am, then it's not my fault anymore.

I don't want to be shy...

I want to and will become more assertive and agressive with what I do (but of course, still remain balanced)...